Can't life take another turn?

Last sunday,was a fun day(for other people) xcept me cause gosh i didnt know people could misunderstand.So many rumours going round about me and him and we arent even friends so its so frustrating cause that been going on for a year already and its starting to get sick.real sick.Its ruining me,chewing of my skin plain KILLING me!I dont know what to do but i have to do something before things get worst.plain WORST.Do 'they',whoever they are,do they know what they are doing?I guess not.He doesnt know the real me then and thats just sad.What a way to start my blog.dang.

here goes:
Always finding a road to believing,
never knew what you were thinking,
you were always in my heart,
but you came along and tore it apart,
and the pieces are left unfixed,
i've wanted to be in that dream,
no love,no glory,
i wish i wouldnt have woken up
but it was all fantasy,
time to come back to reality,
where matters appeared to be fessed up,
i want you to know the real me
cause i cant help but to run to you each time,
will it matter in the end?
im at a broken road staring at a broken door,
tell me what is this for?
i'll be here waiting for you,
to come save me from this turmoil
even if its impossible for you to care,
just you and me,
but wait,im a dreamer that dreams.